Neglect

I will never regret you or say that I wish I'd never met you because once upon a time you were exactly what I needed.

Even though we know we shouldn't love them, we do and always will, because there are just a small number of people in this world who will "get" us for reasons we can't explain, even when they shouldn't.

Without him, I didn't feel the simplicities in the world anymore. The sky was just the sky, and I was just a girl, and without him, neither seemed quite as exquisite and beautiful.

After all is said and done, I still think you're amazing. I still cherish every moment I spent with you, every smile you brought to my face. I'll be forever thankful that someone like you was brought into my life, even if you had to be taken away too soon. See you were my miracle. You were the fairytale I got to live.

And damn, I just want to feel a little safe. I never asked for romance novel love, or movie screen images of kisses. I just wanted to not be alone.

So many thoughts that I can't get out of my head I try to live without you, every time I do I feel dead I know what's best for me but I want you instead I'll keep on wasting all my time.

I swear to you I'll try my best. I won't let you fall. I won't let another goddamn tear run down your face. You're everything, and I need you to see that. I'm sorry I haven't treated you well in the past. I'm sorry I gave up on you. I'm here now, and I'm not going to sit back and watch you lose yourself this time. I promise you that.

How can time just let things fall apart? Because for me, things fall apart, and they never know how to be put back together. Things will never be put back together. No matter how hard I try, I know I'm going to lose you. You're one star in a sky of a thousand, but you're the brightest one, and I know you'll fade. You'll fade until I can't find you anymore.

Doomed to be forgotten.

Heart vs. heart.

I prefer to live in my own little world.

I hide my pain like the rest of them, that's why I'm always laughing. I'm troubled, I'm brilliant and miserable too that's why I'm so funny. I swallow down all my fears with a bottle made of silver, I've only been here for 16 years but already my life is over.

Even though we no longer speak, I still hope you’re doing okay. I’d never admit it to you, but I hate seeing you do this to yourself. I still care.

We're not the same, dear, as we used to be. The seasons have changed and so have we, there was little we could say and even less that we could do to stop the ice from getting thinner under me and you.

I'd wait for you forever, if you promised to come back.

So many times I've loved you, more than myself. It's time to take that love and put it on the shelf.

I won't fight to stay when all you want for me to do is leave. I’m not gonna miss you when you don't miss me. I’m not gonna care when you don't at all. I’m just not going to try anymore. You've kept my hopes up for much too long. It's about time they come crashing back down to earth.

So why'd you have to go? Is there something I could say, to make you turn around? Cause it's nights like these I wish I'd said don't go.

And I find it kind of funny but I find it kind of sad. The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had.

I'm fine. I mean, not that I'm over it, but little by little it's getting easier to pretend it's easier, which means easier might be right around the corner.

Do not ruin yourself pursueing the ones who want something you are not.

"The best revenge is living well without you." - Joyce Carol Oates

I was just thinking about the lyrics to this song 'a dream is a wish you make with your heart', and if thats true, then my heart wants alot of dirty things.

I love you because I know you're always there. There to catch me when I fall. There to listen when I need you, there when I feel alone. I love you because you understand me. You know how I feel even when I can't say it. You know I'm not as strong as I say and still you never let me know that I'm not fooling you. I love you because you make me believe, believe that I am not worthless. Believe that I can be loved, am loved, and can love others. I love you because you know, you know I feel this way but can't say it and still you wait. Letting me take my time to come to terms with the fact that I love you, would give my life up to be with you. And above all, never hurt you, lie to you, or leave you. Now I hope you understand.